Hoping to find a ‘voice’ as a senior

Last week, the Brunswick School class of 2014 finally made it to senior year.

We took the places of the now absent senior chairs in the closing ceremonies and saw the beginning of the end of our high school and our Brunswick careers. While we’ve basically felt like seniors since this year’s graduating class left three weeks ago, I couldn’t help but feel annoyingly nostalgic when it all became official.

Most seniors are expected to feel nostalgic, but only once they graduate. However, for me, just knowing that I was about to spend, after three months of summer, my last year at the place I had known so well made me think about my time there.

I also started to feel strangely old, comparatively of course. And what really struck me was thinking about how I viewed the senior class when I was in my freshman, seventh grade or even first grade years. I remember looking up at the high schoolers towering over us, a seemingly unreachable age. I remember my brother and his friends in their senior year being on a completely different level than I was, even with our only five-year age difference.

I’d had these moments before —  I’m sure everyone has — where all of a sudden you look back and think not only about how old you are but about how the time has gone by so quickly and what you could’ve done differently. The moment made me want to stay at school, even on the brink of summer.

It seems incredibly cheesy to feel this way a whole year before graduating. And I completely understand anyone feeling that way. For the moment I am looking to enjoy summer and do what I can to make the most of my last year of high school instead of thinking about school.

I can’t help but anticipate the coming year, however, and the responsibilities it brings. The big one, of course, is college applications. But I’m not really worried about those, because they are necessary and inevitable.

One thing I do think about, though, is something most rising seniors probably haven’t really considered. At Brunswick, all seniors are expected to write a “senior voice” where they make a speech to the faculty and class about something that they’ve learned at Brunswick.

One has to come up with a speech describing an overarching value or lesson they’ve learned. I can’t help but think that I’m as unprepared as possible for the senior voice, that I’ve never had a moment of “revelation” or understanding in high school.

I know I’ll probably come up with something, and I’m not anxious or worried about the senior voice, but it is definitely a big part of senior year that I’m at least looking forward to.

The end of the year, while usually just a springboard into summer, has been a strangely more significant transition for me. I can’t speak on behalf of my classmates, but something about the cliché “beginning of the end” senior year has made me think about my time at Brunswick more than ever, made me appreciate the opportunities I’ve been given and gotten me to value the time I’ve spent here.

 

Henry Haig is now officially a senior at Brunswick School.

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